helicopter parents (la merced and dodger blue)

Be that as it may, this goat is possibly superior to myself in that she doesn’t curse like a pirate around her kid. Anthropomorphizing as a habit is to be avoided, along with corny puns, I suppose. It’s true I do my best to not indulge in it excessively around the boys for fear of giving them a bad grasp on the natural sciences, animal behavior or whatnot although some of the most passionate, favorite wildlife biologists of mine fall prey to the tendency.

June 2019 - Mt. Ellinor 148

This will be the final image in my Non-Native Wildlife of the Olympics series featuring goats with dingleberries and leftover, tattered winter coats. It’s probable these two will have been airlifted out of this part of the range by the end of August, part of a campaign to remove mountain goats from the Olympic Peninsula. Jesus Christ, some of them are even getting helicoptered out with mind-altering drugs and cushy blindfolds!  As for the cursing, I’m neither potty mouth nor puritan, the boys delight in chastising me over my slightly more than semi-occasional lack of self-control which is gratifying to me, accountability is a paramount virtue in our household.

Wednesday saw me dropping Adam off at the ferry terminal for Camp Orkila. While I was inclined to stay until the boat arrived he encouraged me to leave. During the drive north to Anacortes, that fishing village cum retirement mecca and jumping-off point for the San Juan Islands, I stole glances at my handsome, oldest baby boy with those tiny prepubescentish dotty pimples begging for recreational popping and goofy death metal straining the tinny speakers of his headphones. As we descended into Skagit Valley, his voice cracked like a dinner plate. Yipes! Two nights ago in our very dungeon-like, unfinished basement (having graciously volunteered to crash there on a musty old sofa across from the washing machine in order that his cousin visiting from Lake Michigan Country could have his bed so she didn’t have to sleep like a sardine with Grandma in the back room) I kissed him goodnight on the forehead. He looked up at me in surprise so I wheeled around, kissing him again and he laughed like I told him a corny joke and ever since I’ve been struggling with an acute case of phantom limb. This morning I wrote him a letter because he should have something to tuck under his tearstained pillowcase, like everyone else. The letter was mostly blabbations regarding the history of La Merced, that landmark old schooner with trees growing out of it that anyone on the way to the Anacortes ferry terminal will see, it’s down in Lovric’s shipyard. What I’d written seemed a little dry around the edges so I enclosed a few old Dodgers baseball cards and cut out the latest box scores. Adam’s a huge Dodgers fan, in the beginning it was because of Dodger blue, legitimate as any reason when you’re ten years old but now he’s actually become something of an authority on the team. I’ve thought of taking him down to Chavez Ravine later this summer for a game. You know, as if LA is just a couple hours down the coast……

you can do anything if you put your mind to it and possess particular biological adaptations and evolutionary propensities

Wildlife photography is a wholly unfamiliar discipline to me so it was kind of neat when Adam and I made the acquaintance of some shaggy mountain goats at close quarters in the subalpine, Saturday night. This portrait is someplace in the 24 mm neighborhood which is normally reserved for more stationary objects which tend to not elude me. The inspiration to share this came after dropping the boys, my niece and Grandma off at the zoo, this morning. They’re still there, even. I’m not a big zoo person. The animals always seem to lock onto me in particular with their sad eyes, staring into my soul trying to trade places as it were, giving me a terrible guilt complex, raising all sorts of ethical and philosophical questions I’m not well-equipped to handle. So I just don’t go there.

June 2019 - Mt. Ellinor 158

At any rate, it’s always a good idea to keep a rock available in your pocket in case you encounter a pushier goat on a mountaintop in some ranges of the Olympics or Cascades, they’ve become quite habituated to (fond of, even) Instagram-obsessed humans and the braver ones will get up in your business in the quest for salt. It was electric watching them scale cliffside, the sound of those clacking hooves tend to induce goosebumps. As evolved as they are to move comfortably, nonchalantly about this terrain, plenty of goats bite the dust falling to their deaths so watching them gave me sweaty palms.

measure freeboard here

Cutting off the other point of that mooring cleat from the frame was careless, the sort of thing bonafide to irritate my quality control sensitivities. Probably I was hurrying to get one of the Americas’ more distinctive landmarks of kitsch in this stormy panorama before arriving too close to our every-city modern skyline at the same time Oliver Fern huddled in the back of me using the inside of my shirt as a pup tent vestibule for protection from the elements.

September 2018 - Ferry to Home214-2

The vivid yellow Measure Freeboard Here complements the iconic green and white of each Washington State ferry, just so. The stormy sky north over Queen Anne Hill, its remarkable contrast to the sunshine over Elliott Bay, is what caught my fancy this time. Bringing to mind if only I had a dollar for every novel I’ve read which contained a reference to “scudding” clouds I’d be a millionaire by now. Er, really though. Those clouds were scudding across the sky.

revolutionary sunday

As I’ve got a terrible case of Used-Up in my stretched-out feet and the boys’ mother needed most of Sunday to work (her magic on something, she’s been gone so much it might be the Magna Carta) and the sky was that forget-me-not blue which reminds this grizzled summertime cynic of heat haze to come and how bonkers boys and girls (and they) get when cooped inside, we dusted the bicycles off for a long ride north through pleasant, leafy neighborhoods of northern Seattle to the top of sprawling Lake Washington and beyond, utilizing a combination of biking paths for carefree whistle-while-you-pedal.  First, we pumped air into my thirty year old back tire which chronically, completely flaccidizes between rides, this apparently being something which afflicts a great number of riders above the age of forty or so I may have read about it in a magazine at the dentist’s office. It’s playing fire operating with a slow leak but genetically predisposed as I am to illogicality it was left to Adam (a good boy having inherited his mother’s common sense) to fish out of the junk drawer a stylishly retro tire patch kit from the 1980s and he affixed my old trip computer to the handlebar on his bike to report our distances from home in the event of a flat or some other improbable mechanical dysfunction.

July 2018 - PJ Lake 687

Descending steeply at first, brakes groaning under the strain of that 21% grade, we then coasted into the valley, entering the Arboretum to join with the up-and-down bike path which would shortly ferry us over the Ship Canal to the real beginning of the journey.  En route, we made the brief acquaintance of a uniquely intense neighbor who has made a good living consulting highly technical things while his small-sized boys seem to enjoy fighting, bullying each other in the alley behind our house to an excessive degree but what really sends chills up my spine is their prenaturally calm mother who recently acquired a license in acupuncture. After exchanging pleasantries, we made our connection with the Burke Gilman Trail on the campus of the University of Washington so as to be separated from combustible motors for the duration of the afternoon. Due to that pulsating arthritis inherited from my mother’s side (along with wide hips which would have come in handy for childbirth) I had no choice but to steer alternately one-handed as much as possible throughout the afternoon, periodically pedaling fit of pique no hands, eliciting gasps of admiration from the boys but sneers from sinewy road bikers zooming past atop space-age carbon fiber frames. The one-handed riding was all the better for flicking, swooshing away bumblebees and honeybees which bounced off my face mostly between the University of Washington and Magnuson Park (lots of brambles with flowers) but considering the alarmingly-shrinking worldwide biomass of bugs I was more than happy to serve as human windshield although this proved a ominous omen for a reason which I will momentarily divulge.

We stopped at Matthews Beach Park where the boys lunched on cold pizza. After several more miles of riding through neighborhoods with magnificent views across Lake Washington we had a short layover at that much-beloved bookstore in Lake Forest Park where used titles were heavily discounted for the weekend (discovered a truly stunning, highly technical illustrated atlas of the second World War which was far too heavy to carry for the ride).  Our browsing was limited by that frayed strand of spaghetti-like cable which tenuously secured our three bikes together as you know what the creeps in the suburbs are like.  It was in front of the floatplane hangar in Kenmore where poor Oliver Fern was stung in the back by a panicked junior bumblebee which had gotten mashed between his shirt and backpack. The first bee sting of his young life, it threw him for a loop, he was shrieking at me from his bike like a confused, deranged tourist while I shouted perhaps overly-clinically in return for clarification as to his oblique descriptions of searing pain and pretty soon Adam was yelling up to us from the rear to keep the whole business down. You know, just completely normal family stuff.  The three of us collectively regained our composure there on the side of the path with deep breathing exercises but before continuing the ride Oliver demanded we place the poor, dead bumblebee into Adam’s backpack for observation under his microscope at home, later.

Distracted perhaps by residual throbbing pain between his shoulder blades, just a spell later Oliver executed the overcareful pass, looking too long behind him for would-be zoomers and bicycled smack-dab into a solidly built fellow from Scotland wearing sandals with white socks. Oliver took the worst of the collision, bouncing off the sturdy man’s Brunswick bowling pin calves, deflected if you will, by those giant drumsticks into a tangle of  blossoming brambles which sent a swarm of bees buzzing but beset by adrenaline he leaped back onto his bike in a single bound no worse for wear.

It was to my grave consternation at mile twenty-something that the boys asked to stop at a playground where for an indeterminately long period they ran, jumped and screamed like crazies with a clutch of new best friends. While they played I ate my very smooshed sandwich (jam had leached into the bread for the classic poor man’s messy fig newton), nervously inspected the condition of my rear tire and blankly marveled at the clouds of floating fluff and dizzy, zippy bugs in the early summertime air. Starting to feel knotty in muscles which hadn’t been used since grade school, I summoned the boys before they finally completely exhausted their ridiculous energy and after cruising past strangely exurban, irrigated cropland and fancy wineries for five or six miles we reached our end point in Marymoor Park where one of the most boring sports on its face alone (cricket) was being played for an audience of exactly four people, including us. Having ridden twenty seven miles on a poorly maintained bicycle so it was that I found myself painfully captive to the peculiarities of the match getting underway until the boys’ mother arrived and carted us away like injured racehorses on oversized hospital gurneys, back to Seattle.

Postscript: Bah! Please forgive me for indulging to excess but I’ve been feeling yet another constipational spell coming on and when you’re writing and it feels kinda nice you don’t stop do you? At any rate, it turns out I’m afflicted with neither tendonitis nor periodontitis (although I’m intentionally careless about not putting commas where they should go) but a neuroma, which is scary-sounding but not a big deal. Well, maybe a neuroma. The foot doctor was dispiritingly young having recently graduated from the sixth grade followed by the accelerated program at a dubiously-accredited podiatry school. She’s still working on her rapport with old people, fascinated as she was by the crookedest, long toes she has ever seen attached to my embarrassing snowshoe-sized feet and she told me maybe I need to stop tying my shoes so tight, that was right before plunging the needle into the top of my foot.

Addendum to the Postscript (the proverbial morning-after pill): Below is a short section of explanation which originally commenced this little ditty about the bike ride, it had appeared at the top of the essay when I took a deep breath and pressed the “publish” button. Next morning, it struck me as entirely possible I’d finally “jumped the shark” for with these embarrassing,  unintentionally neurotic-sounding ramblings, so I decided to post these writings retroactive to the date of the principal event in question (the bike ride).  Effective immediately, I’m placing myself under metaphorical house arrest (I’ll be wearing a bulky ankle bracelet with flashing rainbow lights) and suspending all journaling on the archive in excess of one hundred and twenty nine words. When I go over the word limit, the ankle bracelet will start beeping a ridiculous commotion followed by mournful recitations of work by Edgar Allan Poe. This will be a grave challenge but I think I’m up to it. This is the probable final season of journaling like some kind of troubadour on Tyrannosaurus Fir as I’ve grown increasingly curious about the pursuance of a more collaborative venture and it would be nice to go out with at least a dignified whimper. 

Prologue of Explanation (the particular matter, or item if you will, under question in the addendum to the postscript): Consideration was given to publishing this essay retroactive to the weekend before last because: 1. That’s when the events herein took place but mainly, it was because 2. its length had ballooned to presumptuously Bunyanesque proportions. Before I could get around to brush-hogging words, Oliver Fern plugged the toilet Tuesday night (with enough tissue to paper mâché a five-passenger van) and we had our own miniature Buckingham Fountain but as if that wasn’t enough excitement, during bath-time he got a small toy stuck down his ear canal, necessitating a visit to urgent care for a most delicate extrication. Suffice to say by this time Wednesday last week I’d moved on emotionally from Sunday and then I got distracted by a project requiring “real” writing on Thursday. Then it occurred to me retroactively posting this would be just another form of the pernicious echo chamber and so it is I’m dropping this on your threshold like a soggy fieldmouse because I want to provide for you, dear reader.  I’m not going to sit here and wait to see what you do with it. Go ahead and wait for the next more concise thing or fold this crossways because it looks like you brought a messy lunch back with you (looks pretty tasty, though) and I don’t see any napkins, you always forget the napkins.